I miss you
But its I who has gone
Yet again come undone
Left to **** it up
Its all I can say
I want to be better
But all I can be is me
Through my blood stained life
Its all I can see
I want you to have more
But all I have to offer is me
This is who I was before
Not that you need to see
The scares still alive in me
Wishing they were on my wrist
Cravings consume me
I just want
Want
To be enough
Make me human
Be something worth having
Normal
Alive
Human I scream
Want me
Want me
Love me
Ill bleed
Because I cant be
I need to be better
Be happy
Not let you see
Hide
Don’t let him see
Just want to bleed
Scares alive in me
Wish they were on my wrist again
Beating me
Squeezing the life out of me
I feel this monster rising again
Feeding on me
My god the pain drives to oblivion
Do you know what its like
To be living with a monster hidden in your body
I cry scarlet tears
They drip from me
Youll never love me
I cant love me
No one can
I have a monster living in me
Its feeding on me
Making me want to bleed
Just so I don’t have to be
The ravaged mess you see
Something always picking me apart
It’s the monster consuming me
Down on the floor again
Ragged breaths drawn in between cuts
Tears they stream
The bloods a sign
It beating me
I breath
I struggle
In out
Its trying to kill me
Bleed me

Kara don't do anything dumb! Be strong.

thanks soseductive and M Im ok and doing notthing dumb they are just feelings thank you for all your support

KaraAnn,

Thank you for sharing.

powerful words Diva. Be strong girl

that was a beautiful poem of expression [while it's negative]
I loved it, especially this line

"I cry scarlet tears"

I've never heard it like that, it's great

strong words. thanks for sharing.

*BUMP*

heather thanks for reading and bumping this one (hugs)) Lj thanks for the encourgement and kind words ! hey del thanks for taking the time to read it and comment glad you found a favorite line however sorry about the negitivity hey lmp thanks for reading nice to see you again glad you liked it

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Originally posted by Gothic_Diva:
heather thanks for reading and bumping this one (hugs)) Lj thanks for the encourgement and kind words ! hey del thanks for taking the time to read it and comment glad you found a favorite line however sorry about the negitivity hey lmp thanks for reading nice to see you again glad you liked it

KaraAnn,

Your welcome.

I feel that you are expressing that sometimes the sight of what is in us as humans often is a reminder that we are not perfect, and even though we strive to build ourselves as a better person, we may lose the identity of who we truly are as an individual. Therefore missing and longing for/or what used to be..........Anywhere close?

amen to that ! we always loose innocence along the way and with that it seems we lose sanity too and everyone eventualy misses that feeling of normalcy I just felt like a parasite and wanted things to be the way I invisioned i wanted the see other recognizing the standards I had upheld for so long and yet such a loss of innocence!!! love the interpritation thanks